February 2002 so Celexa walks in and she says to me, she says- (posted Aug 2003)

I got a warning at work for job performance. This really pissed me off since I had reached out to my “lead” at the appropriate time to let her know I was leaving the Daddyman and wanted her support on the job (to me that’s saying –in case I get too distracted or mess up, warn me and help me..) I was very proud of myself for asking for the help I might need. Too bad it didn’t work out.

I decided maybe I needed to recognize that I wasn’t doing as well as I thought I was. Who did I think I was, after all, going to work and trying? Clearly the right move for me would be to have a complete breakdown.

So again, I tried to do the right thing at work, and I made an appointment with a therapist, and contemplated trying antidepressant medication. I started taking Celexa which was also lauded for its anti-anxiety effects. It completely knocked me out. After a few days getting used to the effects I was ready to go back to work.


On my way to work that day I got into car accident #2.